Monday, February 22, 2010

You know, there are some things I don't understand. Most of it has to do with science, or the human condition, or a combination of the two. Fer 'zamples- why does the hormone plummet- and by this I mean the days after ovulation when my hormone levels plummet- produce such a staggering change in me? I go from thinking about how busy I am and how much I want to accomplish to Why can't I just shut my frigging mouth and realize that no one gives two shits about what I think? and  how much evidence do I need before I realize what a total loser I am?

I sure miss the girl of my youth who didn't give a rat's ass about what other people think....

7 comments:

erica said...

WTF?? You are totally awesome, and sha! Don't say things like this about yourself! Bad Holder!!!!! I give 100 shits about what you think.

Joan of Argghh! said...

You wouldn't say such a thing to another person of your long acquaintance, would you? Even if you thought that about your best friend, you'd never say it to their face; you'd think of encouraging, re-focused things to talk about in order to make them see what you see: all the good things and valuable additions you bring into a relationship. Even one with yourself.

I remind myself of that when i find myself being weirdly over-critical. Just because it's hormones talking doesn't make it true!

Holder said...

thanks y'all! Most days I love being me, but then there are those days....I think we all need reminding about the good things every now and again.

leeann said...

My flucuating hormones do not make me yap. They make me suddenly enraged at random fools doing random semi-innocent things, and I start clawing at my waist like I'm a blind Doc Holliday looking for my gun.

Anonymous said...

been there, doing that
still,
and knowing it doesnt make a bit of difference
its like one woman telling another how much it hurts to have a kid
but how much they will enjoy that child
two sides of a woman

KurtP said...

You miss the girl of your youth?
Did Junior Brown hit a nerve here?

Not that I'd have shied away from you back then,,just a different time,,and we'd have both bee bukket proof and living the Island style in Port A, TX

Holder said...

You know, Kurt, he might have been talking about me, after all. Did a lot of things I probably will not tell my children until they are much, much older. Thanks for the song, I needed that.