Sunday, February 25, 2007


oy, my brain hurts. I'm rewriting my benchmarks test for the next 9 weeks.
ughh, I need chocolate...

We had beans for dinner last night.
Well, the good news is they don't stink, yet.

You know when you look around you, and your blessings are so abundant? I have a job I love, a husband who's crazy about me, 3 great kids, my health, my mood has improved soooo much, my students are doing fairly well. When life is this good I get scared. I'm afraid to talk about how good my life is for fear I'll jinx it. I see the pain some of my friends are in, mentally and emotionally, how horrible the men in their lives are, it makes me very grateful for my life.

I'm scared. Whenever my life is going good, something bad happens. Illness, strife, depression, death. I'm waiting for something to happen.

Bad dreams- kids with guns, my husband leaving me, all are a symptom of my dis-ease, the underlying worry.
What's that saying about people not being afraid of failure, but of their own success?

You guys ever feel this way? What do you do about it?

1 comment:

Lisa W. said...

I don't think I get to feeling that way very often because usually something comes to bite me in the butt before I get a chance to immerse myself in the so-called perfectness of my life.

I'm not sure what to do about it. You can't really help feeling the way you feel.