I'm trying, I really am...

but I really wish Christmas would go away. Happy people, families doing shit together, shopping for cryin' out loud!, family to visit, presents to buy, being nice, 3 weeks in the house with my kids (I hope we have enough beer and wine). I used to love Christmas, then Daddy died, and I found that I could only muster some cheer for the kids. Then Mom died and so did my Christmas spirit. Too fucking depressing now.

I'm trying to share my happy thoughts on this site, so posts may be sparse for a while....